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Tuesday, December 21st, 2004
5:58 pm	goodbye forever. It's been fun. New ElJay - glossnblack (Comment on this)
Sunday, December 19th, 2004
6:27 pm	This is why I hate the world and everyone in it. Friday December 19th, 2003 I just don't feel the same way that you do about me. Things didn't click into place like they were supposed to. Because I didn't think it was fair. I didn't want to hurt you. I didn't want to lead you on. I didn't know how I felt so I just asked you to be my girlfriend. I don't know what to say anymore. ....He broke up with me....   Off sobbing in my room somewhere. Current Mood: crushed Current Music: only the sounds of my sobbing (1 Comment |Comment on this)
11:52 am	Americans spend more then $630 million a year on golf balls. - Real Fact #154 Friday, December 19th 2003 I figure I have the time so I might as well eljay. So...the past few days have been kinda crazy. Tuesday - CAME HOME, showered and chillaxed at Jennys with <3 John <3 and Sean and watched the Italian Job and then came home around 1:30am or so. Wednesday - First day of work :) 7:30-1am and then met Katie, Matt, Kristen, Alissa, and Kathryn over at silver diner for some FOOOOODABLES and then we all ended up back at Kristens house and I didn't get home till around 4:30am. *yawn* Thursday - Went to the gym for a hour and 1/2 with Jenny, came home and showered, went to chicken out with jenny, went to the mall to shop for xmas presants and found this AWESOME new store called Rampage, then worked from 6:30-1am again, but this time I actually went home afterwards and went to sleep because I'm smart like that. Today I have work from 2:30-8:30 and then I am going to hang out with the boyfriend. :) Haha. I can't get enough of calling him my boyfriend. Its spectacular spectacular. SHOWER. My mom bought diet peach snapple iced tea. My mom is god. Current Mood: sore Current Music: your mother. (Comment on this)
Friday, December 17th, 2004
1:39 am	HOME SWEET HOME. Wednesday December 17th, 2003 The only reason I'm posting right now is to say that I'm home and that rocks. Tonight I saw John and can I say that things are amazing? Ugh. I'm so happy its disgusting. What more can I want? * Home for a month + some * Visiting Jenny for a week in Seattle * I get to see my baby for a longggggggg time before I have to go back to school! * I'm working at Hot Topic in Montgomery Mall for mostly all of break so stop by and see me. I probably wont be posting as much because I actually have stuff to do and my only friends aren't my computer and LJ anymore (I'm sorry LJ...I mean that in the nicest way possible). For now I sleep. Dreaming of that special boy who stole my heart. Current Mood: giddy Current Music: nothing-ness (Comment on this)
Thursday, December 16th, 2004
11:08 am	truth sucks. Best Imitation of Myself Which Ben Folds(Or Ben Folds Five) Song Are You? brought to you by Quizilla (Comment on this)
10:32 am	yep. Tuesday December 16th, 2003 I never thought I'd say this but I update my livejournal entirely too much. Or can there be too much? Who knows. I just update a lot. This entry is devoted to the fact that I'm going home in like...2 hours. Amen. It's beautiful outside, I'm going home, and I love this song. Woo. ( Kottonmouth Kings - Positive Vibes ) Ugh! Werd. Next time I talk to you I'll be chillin at home for 6 weeks. YA HEARD?! Current Mood: anxious Current Music: KMK (Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 15th, 2004
9:47 pm	SO SOON Monday December 15th, 2003 Ohk...seriously. 14 hours till I'm home. Can you all just feel the excitement building??? I can't even study for my psych exam...not that I really planned on doing that anyway. I miss my <3 JoHn <3 ((Text messaging today)) John: good luck on todays final babe **Later today** Me: Erg. Only 1 more final and im home free John: how'd todays go? Me: Great! :) John: Great to hear (well read) :) Me: I'm so excited to go home! John: I know hun. I cant wait either HOMEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!! NOW! Current Mood: excited Current Music: The Starting Line - This Ride (Comment on this)
2:20 pm	uh, HELLO?! Monday December 15th, 2003 UM. Done. I stabbed the shit outta my music history exam. It's officially my bitch. Going home in about 24 hours. Current Mood: amused Current Music: Kottonmouth Kings (Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 14th, 2004
7:12 pm	*sigh* ....break time. Sunday December 14th, 2003 Alright...I'm giving myself a little break from studying for my Music History final exam. I'm allowed to right? I've been studying since 4 and its 7:15. Damn right I'm allowed to. Doesn't really matter how much I try on this exam regardless...it's going to rip me a new ass hole anyway. Frustrating much? Everyone here is gone. Seriously, there are like 6 people on campus. You think I'm joking? The sad part is that I'm not. Bah. "Pullll mother fucker PULLLLLLLL" --- hahahahahaha. I'm starting to love this KMK (Rollin' Stoned) CD. Oh man...I can't be here anymore! I'm just thinking about how soon I'm going home. In less then 72 hours I'm going to be in the car going HOME. Lets see...41 hours exactly until I'll be hitting the road with Kirsten. Wow, its sad that I know that. Alright, I might as well go back to studying for this stupid thing. The great part is if I don't finish all my studying tonight I get to wake up early and study more because my exam isn't until 1:30pm tomorrow. Psychology exam at 9:30am on tuesday...ICK. Current Mood: anxious Current Music: Kottonmouth Kings - Positive Vibes (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, December 13th, 2004
7:03 pm	whoa - true much? Saturday December 13th, 2003 Whooooaaaaa, man, you're Kashmir, Led Zeppelin's most enigmatic and trippy song. You're a very mysterious, zany, and disconnected person, escaping from what you perceive as an unpleasant reality into an alternate plane of your own creation. You're refreshing to be around, but you possibly have a drug problem and find it difficult to relate to others at times. Which Led Zeppelin song are you? brought to you by Quizilla (Comment on this)
6:51 pm	oh wow.... Saturday December 13th, 2003 You're "Cheerleader". You love cheerleading, Le Girl magazine, and looking so good! You are popular and the leader of Teen Girl Squad. Which Member of Teen Girl Squad are you? brought to you by Quizilla Best. Quiz. Ever. Only...If I really was a cheerleader I'd probably commit suicide. Ick. (Comment on this)
3:06 pm	I'm never drinking again.... Saturday December 13th, 2003 -- HAPPY BIRTHDAY DANNY!! :) Remind me to never drink again. Last night was the equivalent to the little "get together" Me, Alissa, Katie, and Hunter had at Alissa's house 2 summers ago. I thought that killing myself would be a better alternative for feeling the way I was. For everyone who didn't know about that night at Alissa's...well...we got REALLY drunk and kinda died...thats all I'm going to get into because talking about it is making me feel naucious. Anyway. Last night me and Regina started drinking at 6:30...ya smart move, I know. Lets re-cap how much I drank.... * a mix drink made with at least 3 shots of citrus vodka * 2 shots of bacardi cocoa * another mix drink with 3 or more shots of citrus vodka * 2 beers * a jello shot Ughhhh...that makes 9 shots of all sorts of random shit and 2 beers. For me thats A LOT considering I'm a light weight. So we started drinking in my room and then moved over to Conover Marcs room for his going away party and drank there and played kings and then I almost passed out on the bed so I decided to walk alone back to my room. Really glad I made it, almost didn't....and...almost fell down the steps...oops. So I finally get back to my room and attempt to talk to people online and I vaguely remember telling Glen he could come to my room with his 2 friends to say hi. All I really DO remember is that they showed up and I was like what?? So I talked to them for a few minutes, trying to convince them to get me food...which they wouldnt...so I kicked them out. Haha. I remember calling John. I don't remember what I said. I hope I wasnt TOO stupid!! I heart you baby! So I then pass out at 10:45...how fuck rediculous is that?? 10:45?!?!?! Anyway only to wake back up at 3am feeling HORRIBLY sick. I didn't fall back asleep till 6:30am. I felt like I was going to die. ICK. When I finally woke up this morning my room was A MESS!! God...what did I do in the hours from 3am-6:30am?? I know I was alone and was running my ass back and forth to the bathroom for a while...but why would my room be trashed?? Damn, were me and Regina THAT fucked up?? Speaking of Regina...Girl...it happens. You know what I am talking about. It may be stupid ,but never have regrets right? Listen...I've been in your position before and its going to suck for a while but I promise things will get better with time. LOVE. I'm not drinking for a long long time. My newly turned 21 yr old boyfriends going to make fun of me. Beat. Current Mood: cold Current Music: Shaniqua!!! (Comment on this)
Sunday, December 12th, 2004
6:21 pm	....What do u want? Friday Dec 12th, 2003 Earthquake ?? Which Natural Wonder Or Disaster Are You ?? brought to you by Quizilla "Am I too lost to be saved? Am I too lost?" Yeah...just one of those depressing nights. Don't bother asking whats wrong, because if I knew I'd tell you. I'm going to drown my sorrows in alcohol. Current Mood: depressed Current Music: Evanescence - Hello (Comment on this)
Saturday, December 11th, 2004
1:59 pm	FUCK YA! Thursday December 11th, 2003 Today has rocked so hard core. I woke up real early (not that I WANTED to but because I was so nervous about my acting final) only to look out my window and see that it was POURING outside! That was the only thing of today that was beat. I had to walk all the way to the theatre in the pouring rain. But guess what? ME AND DIPO KICKED ASS!! It was great! We both looked hot and remembered all our lines and Miriam really liked it. I felt special. Then I went to take my Expository Writing final and the little fucker only took me a whole 20 minutes! Everything was right off the quizes that he had previously given us. Woooooo. 3 finals/3 essays down...2 finals to go. 5 days till I go home and get to see my John. So - my bed is looking quite inviting right now and I must tend to it. It just BEGGING me to get in it and sleep my life away. Thats exactly what I plan to do. Current Mood: calm Current Music: nothing-ness and its beautiful. (Comment on this)
Friday, December 10th, 2004
7:03 pm	score. Wednesday, December 10th, 2003 Hmmm...my plan of secluding myself in my room and not caring about anything except exams and going home is working. People are starting to wonder whether or not I've already left....No, unfortunatly I'm still here. I WANT TO GO HOME NOW. I want to start working at Hot Topic. I want to see my John. I want to see my Jenny. I want to see everyone else I havent seen in god knows how long. I want exams to be OVER! AH! Current Mood: stressed Current Music: Thursday - Steps Ascending (Comment on this)
Thursday, December 9th, 2004
10:37 pm	UPDATE TIME. Tuesday, December 9th, 2003 7 Days. Wow, The Ring much? Creepy. Anyway. I oficially have the room to myself for an entire week. SCORE ONE FOR ME! Although it kinda weird to be alone after so long of living with someone... OMG! Sorry...I had to interupt the previous thing I was saying. Aw, my friend Jason is so sweet! He actually went to the CStore and got me an orange soda! I told him that I've been craving a soda ALL DAY and the vending machines were ALL FUCKING SOLD OUT. So he went outside in the snow and cold, across the street, to the CStore and brought me back an orange soda. JASON, YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!....I guess that makes up for you calling me fat... Ok back to having the room to myself. Yes, it is a tad lonely around here. --No roomie walking around 1/2 naked with her boob in a cup doing salt soaks --No roomie shaving her legs in the middle of the floor with her electric razor --No roomie screaming about how "certain" boys SUCK ASS --No roomie to shower next to...NOT WITH...NEXT TO --No roomie to have pointless sex conversations with --No roomie to go to frats with and dance our asses off --No roomie to talk to before I go to sleep and say goodnight to --And no roomie to discuss how its possible that we deal with eachother everyday Don't get me wrong. Being alone in the room is kick ass. But after living with someone for so long, its strange when they arent around 24/7 like normal. But on the plus side...it gives me time to clear my head, have my alone time, get lots of studying done, and maybe...just maybe...have the boyfriend over for the weekend :) On a different note. I'm still sitting in my towel after taking a shower at 9:45...its 10:58 I just spilled orange soda on myself. Beat. I want to go home. NOW. Thats all. *End Scene* Thank you. Current Mood: bored Current Music: Rufio - One slow dance (1 Comment |Comment on this)
5:12 pm	I'm bored.... Tuesday December 9th, 2003 HAPPY BIRTHDAY REGINA! HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOHN! (tomorrow) HAPPY BIRTHDAY JENNY! (friday) Ya...I'm really bored. Alissa left me and went home today and I don't get to go home till next tuesday. 7 Days. Invisible anvil??! Yah ok...I really don't get it. Whateve geek I am...I am DAMN PROUD of being one!! What can I say? Being evil is one of my better qualities. Hahahahahahahahahaha. I virtualed your pet last night. BAH! </center> </center> I may not NEED a boyfriend but I HAVE ONE and I couldn't be happier with it. So to you, you stupid quiz, put that in your pipe and smoke it! I'm pretty damn hard core! Fear me! Na-Ha! Current Mood: bored Current Music: Sugarcult - Memory (Accoustic) (Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 8th, 2004
11:13 pm	HEY HEY! Monday, Dec 8th, 2003 Mark this date. Yes, I, Allison Alter, have a boyfriend. Current Mood: awake Current Music: the ringing in my head (2 Comments |Comment on this)
9:14 pm	im grey, interesting. you are dimgray #696969 Your dominant hue is red... you are passionate, energetic, and unafraid of life's changes. You're all about getting out and trying something new, even if it means taking risks that other people would be afraid of. Hey, if they're afraid and you're not, more power to you, right? Your saturation level is very low - you have better things to do than jump headfirst into every little project. You make sure your actions are going to really accomplish something before you start because you hate wasting energy making everyone else think you're working. Your outlook on life is slightly darker than most people's. You try to see things for what they are and face situations honestly. You'd rather get to the point than look for what's good. the spacefem.com html color quiz Current Mood: tired Current Music: Dashboard Confessional - Screaming Infidelities (Comment on this)
2:26 pm	haha, i miss my katie... Monday, December 8th, 2003 One of the many reasons I love Katie SOOOOOOO much! TheFury606: finals = ahhhh! TuffLilShorty509: finals suck TuffLilShorty509: but i have today off, so im happy TuffLilShorty509: and i leave the day after tomorrow TheFury606: yeah im off today also TheFury606: but i dont leave for another week and a day TheFury606: blah! TuffLilShorty509: you should just blow off exams and come home early like weeeee TheFury606: haha right and then fail out of school and get disowned by my parents TheFury606: ok TuffLilShorty509: ill make it worth your while TheFury606: oh really?? TheFury606: how? TuffLilShorty509: i was thinking more along the lines of throwing a big party with people that can do circus tricks and midgets...lots of midgets, and then i would be the ringmaster (that would be sweeet) and i would make all the elephants poop on your parents and then to top everything off, i would have john, naked, bring you a hunred red roses-but with all the thorns cut off-and make sweet love to you all night long...but after the circus cuz i dont think everyone would want to watch you guys going at it TuffLilShorty509: deal? TheFury606: ya, but...the circus sounds like a good idea TheFury606: that would be mad cool TheFury606: hahahahaha TheFury606: ok (Comment on this)